Hi friends I’m gonna start this episode off real calm and real sweet because I’m
basically gonna tell you why you aren’t achieving shit and I’m gonna attack you
and I’m gonna give you a lot of honest truths that I needed to hear a long time
ago and then I’m gonna tell you how to fix it and how to actually achieve
things so all the little lessons I’ve learned about achieving things and
meeting certain desires and goals here we are I’m gonna give it to you straight
so put on your big girl panties you might shit them but I’m about to throw a
lot of new perspectives at you a lot of truths and then I’m gonna tell you a
couple of ways it’s like my three assessments that I use to kind of check
myself and I’m gonna tell you the three ways you can assess if you’re going to
achieve something and why you’re not achieving it if you aren’t yet so let’s
jump into it and first we’re gonna start talking about desires so if you have a
desire for something you want something you want to achieve something you want
to have something there’s nothing wrong with it desire is not bad and there’s a
lot of reasons a lot of people think having a desire is bad you can’t get
rid of it you can’t not want something that you want so go ahead and accept
that and then what are we gonna do about it so if I can’t not want this
thing how can I manifest it how can I actualize it and we’re gonna break down
the whole manifestation bullshit a little bit in this episode but the main
thing I want to get across about desires is you might be a little discouraged
when you think of something that you want so like a goal for my life has
always been to make a million dollars a month where the fuck am I supposed to
start with that I don’t know how I’m gonna do it I have no clue but the thing
you need to get about desires is you can’t have a desire unless there is a
way to get to it like it’s not some twisted fucked up game of the universe
or God is playing with you whoever you want to believe in like believe who you
need to believe in and use that but you’re not being punished you’re not
like being sent a desire and that you just can’t have it like there’s no joy
that comes out of the universe or God from like you wanting something and then
them holding it from you no one’s holding shit from you and a lot of
people get discouraged and I used to get very discouraged when I would have a
desire for something like oh a million dollars a month that seems ungodly to me
but I could not have this desire unless there was a possibility for it so for me
feeling discouraged is because I don’t see a way to get there yet but there
absolutely is a way to get there there’s so many ways to get there so go ahead
and knock that fucking discouragement right out of your head if you think that
there’s something too big for you you’re just not aware of the way to get there
yet or a way to get there you have to commit to finding that you have to
commit to finding the way to get to what you want and as soon as you do that
shit’s gonna start unfolding but my biggest point here comes grab your
britches you can’t just ask for shit and think it’s gonna happen like this whole
spirituality and all this talk about manifestation use your thoughts and think
things into reality how the fuck good has that worked out for you it probably
fucking hasn’t that’s why you’re frustrated and landed on this video
thinking thoughts and thinking that’s gonna somehow manifest shit in your
physical reality is bullshit it’s not all of it like that’s such a small
fucking like 1% of what it takes to manifest something it doesn’t even
fucking matter it literally doesn’t matter because there’s not much energy
in that the energy is in action and what you’re doing to actualize it before I
get ahead of myself if you have a desire for something do not sit back and ask
God for it or the universe and like declare it and get a crystal and get a
candle and be like oh my god I want this thing okay do it you know how fucking
delusional that is I used to try it I used to fucking try it all the time and
because that’s what everybody preaches all these manifestation motherfuckers
are always preaching this bullshit and I got to a point where I was asking for so
much and none of it was happening I was like fucking what the fuck the universe
would love me like I know I’m gay but God what the fuck but do not sit back
and just ask for shit to happen to you that is throwing all of your power away
and you’re throwing every potential for your life out of your own hands oh I
said I wanted it and now I’m gonna think about it and I’m gonna visualize it and
I’m in the journal and I’m gonna buy crystals and it’s just gonna poof
happen babe it’s not I’m so fucking sorry to say it but that’s not how life works
that’s not how shit goes and to put all of your power into some being that we
don’t even know if it exists or not like the universe or God like who the
fuck knows if it’s even real there is a possibility we’re all full of shit I
prefer to believe in it because goddamn but you’re not here in this life to just
passively live it and to passively manifest things you’re here to actively
manifest things and create things so we got a BFF are for a second be fucking
for real you’re in this life with a functioning body you have a mind that
thinks you have a body that works you think that you were equipped with
something like this to just go into a life and just like ah passively just sit
back and just ask and pray for things you weren’t you were sent in with energy
inside of you and that is creative energy you are allowed to put that into
whatever the fuck you want to put into you can really manifest anything you
want but you have to put your ass behind it you have energy to create so use it
like your little depression your little sadness okay girl cool but are you gonna
do what it takes to do shit like I get there’s so many things that come into it
and come into play and are factors of it but if you have a functioning body you
have no fucking excuse and before somebody tries to come at me be like oh
I am handicapped I don’t have an arm I took care of a patient who was
quadriplegic paralyzed from the neck fucking down could not move his body and
he was a very very successful software engineer when he was born he had full
function like and control over his body he could move he could walk and then he
had an accident happen a situation where he was shot at a gas station in the back
of the neck and it paralyzed him for the rest of his life but that creative
energy does not die you can block it from coming out of you but it does not
go away because this patient of mine went through a lot of shit but he chose
to continue forward and when there’s a will there’s a goddamn way he literally
would sit at his computer with like you know those little like iPad things where
it’s like a pen and you can like touch on it he would have a long stick and a
mouthpiece and it was attached to it so that he could use his computer it was a
touchscreen computer and he would bite the piece I would have to put it into
his mouth and he would like type things on the computer screen he would book
trips for nurses and take them on cruises he would go on trips himself he
would have clients he would fucking coach people he could use his mouth and
talk and he could use his mouth to like poke the letters he needed and like the
things he needed on the computer bitch if that ain’t fucking inspiration for
you to get off your fucking ass and do something I don’t know what is I don’t
know what’s gonna have to knock you upside your fucking head for you to get
up okay and I’m speaking like at myself my old self when I speak so intensely
like this I’m not yelling at you you need to hear it but I’m yelling at my
old self because I convinced myself I was so just like unable to do shit and
then I had that experience where I took care of him and I was like I have zero
fucking excuse my body works I have ten legs up on this I’m so much out of an
advantage who cares if you’re fucking depressed you can still get your ass up
and I was diagnosed as clinically depressed twice chronically chronically
depressed bitch I know what it’s like I know exactly what it’s like and before
you’re trying to attack me literally just listen to the people who have
gotten out of the place you feel so stuck in okay my whole podcast is me
sharing everything that’s got me out of the worst shit of my life and got me
through it and what I’ve learned so just take your little fucking beliefs
and put them aside for a second and try on the shit that I’m telling you and
just watch what changes if you want to fight me and hold on to your beliefs
that hurt you have it you can lead a donkey to water I know the analogy is
like you can lead a horse to water but you being a goddamn donkey you can lead
a donkey to water but you can’t make a fucking drink I can drown you in it but
you’re still not gonna drink it so if you want to have your beliefs that don’t
work for you and that hurt you have them I’m gonna share what the fuck has worked
for me but my whole point with this is you are able to create and manifest so
much more than you even give yourself credit for this man with a body that
does not work is doing more than you he’s figured it the fuck out he’s
committed to it he’s driven he’s doing what it takes like girl oh my god that
is the most inspiring experience I’ve ever had and I had that situation line
up with me when I needed it most they woke me the fuck up but moving on to my
next point stop being such an entitled little shit just cuz you ask for
something doesn’t mean you’re gonna get it you have the full capacity and the
full ability to create something why the fuck would God just give it to you use
your own ass to do it he’s got enough on his plate he got enough people asking
for shit literally put your own ass behind what you want you need to
recognize the power you have recognize the energy you have to put into things
and make it manifest and literally it’s there like it’s in all of us we all have
it you think I just had all this shit happen to me that’s happened to me no
girl I had to create it every single person you see has had to put energy
into everything that they have and do it might look like oh it was just handed to
them a lot of people paint that image a lot of people are fucking suffering and
you have no idea but I’m gonna take it down a notch on the aggressive side
because now I have like some really serious things I want you to get and if
I’m screaming you’re gonna be a little bit on the defense and not as receptive
but instead of trying to passively just like will things into existence and ask
for them and throw all your power away I want you a lot of people do that
because they don’t see that they’re capable or don’t feel capable like
people turn to a higher power when they have absolutely nothing and they feel
incapable and they feel hopeless so I get it but what I want you to start
doing is flipping your focus from how you can’t do something or how you can’t
achieve something and manifest something and start seeing how you can see what
advantages you do have see the ability you do have see what you can put into
actualizing whatever it is that you want and I have a lot of personal examples
and a lot of shit I’m gonna run you through but this is just like my first
little hot take so let’s visit the idea of having a desire like there’s
something that you want whether it’s money fame to look a certain way to like
be muscular or be skinny like whatever your desire is for anything a boyfriend
a girlfriend literally anything you want in this life I want you to start
focusing on the actions you can take to having that happen and to creating that
what the fuck actions can you take that will get you any step closer to what it
is you want so every time you have a desire from now on sit down and make an
action plan what are all of the things that I can do and literally break it
down into daily things make it very real make it something that you work toward
if you want it bad enough consistently and daily like even if you don’t know
the exact actions to take you don’t need to there are certain things that you
know to do that will propel you forward and as you keep going forward you’re
gonna learn more shit so where you are vibrationally when you’re standing at
the beginning you start taking a few steps even if they’re not like the right
steps or the best steps you’re already moving forward you can’t go back so if
you’re already moving forward your perspective from this new standpoint is
gonna be completely different you are a match to new shit that you were not a
match to back here so as you take any step forward you’re a match to new
ideas new experiences and new awareness that will get you closer to what you
want but you have to start walking toward it you have to start doing
anything that you can to start getting in that direction and now we’re gonna
get into my three assessments so the three ways that I assess my actions to
check myself and get myself in line to make sure I’m gonna actualize what it is
that I want assessment number one are you just saying that you want something
or are you actually doing something to get it like look at your life whatever
it is so my example I used to always say I wanted money I wanted financial
freedom I wanted abundance I wanted to just be able to go buy whatever the fuck
I wanted to buy who doesn’t want that right but when I looked back at my life
when I was sitting down and just like saying I want financial freedom when I
assessed my actions what the fuck was I actually doing to get there nothing I was
not doing shit to actually make me more money I was trying certain things here
and there but nothing at the scale I needed to to get to where I wanted to go
like working a job is not abundance that’s a fucking paycheck that’s a
salary that’s gonna help you live what can you do to get out of that what can
you do to surpass that waking up going to the gym going to your job what part
of your day was actually focused on abundance none of it fucking none of it
so you really have to take inventory I was like Leo you’re saying you want this
thing but do your actions match that do your actions match your desire no bitch
if you keep doing what you’re doing you’re never gonna get there so how the
fuck do you expect to get there so after I kind of realized all this and took
inventory of like my life and I was like okay you’re actually not putting your
ass behind anything that you say that you want I started to do that so I
didn’t know where to start with making money and like having financial
abundance so I just started reading about it I started reading everything I
could about money I started researching money the flow of money the energy of
money the transfer of money I started reading as many books as you can fucking
find on money I’ve probably read all of them out there like the psychology of
money I’ve looked up and researched and consumed everything about money that I
knew I could at the time and that brought me so many more perspectives
knowledge and guidance for trying to make it how’d I just sat back and kept
saying Oh universe oh my god I want money I wouldn’t be any closer even just
reading the fucking 20 books that I found I was so much closer and so much
more ahead and I was actually doing something to actualize it and then guess
what happened ideas started visiting me that would make me money I started
trying things I started doing a lot of shit different my whole perspective and
attitude and relationship to money flipped and it completely changed and it
allowed me to start being in circumstances and situations that feel
prepared for them and ready for them and a match to them to make money I also
researched how to manage money and what to do with it like how money is
transferred what you do with it literally I learned everything you could
about it and then like I say in my other podcast episodes like my one about
productivity just because you learn something doesn’t mean shit now you need
to apply it this is where the action step comes in so at the beginning the
action step to get toward my goal was to learn about it okay I learned about it
now what learning about it don’t do shit a lot of people get caught up in the
whole education side like I need to learn more no bitch there comes a point
where you just need to act like there’s nothing left for me to learn about money
I just had to start acting and as soon as I started doing shit sure I failed
sure things fucked up but I started making money and now I’m starting to
make money at a level that I’m like I am financially free so it just stacks on
itself but you need to assess your actions what the fuck are you doing for
it what you don’t get to sit here and just claim that you want money if you’re
not doing jack shit for it and I know people are gonna get pissy like oh
there’s people who are born into it we were you no you can’t deal with the
cards in someone else’s hand you can only deal with the cards that you’ve
been dealt so make the fucking best of it a lot of people don’t have to learn
about money a lot of people are born into it or a lot of people do have
success on their first little venture and they become a fucking billionaire
overnight cool is that your hand of cards no you can sit here and cry and
complain like oh it’s not fair what is that gonna do how is sitting here and
complaining and looking at how shit is not fair going to get you closer to your
goals it’s not shut the fuck up and deal with what your situation is put blinders
on pretend like nothing else exists deal with your personal reality and what you
need to do to get to where you need to go that’s what you need to focus on and
that’s fucking it and I want to harp on that point one more time you don’t have
to know what to do literally take any step and it will just start to unfold
it’s not gonna make sense because then when I look back on my life and my whole
journey a lot of things don’t make sense for when I would go for something that I
wanted it would come in a way that I didn’t expect or certain things would
happen and when I was going through it I was like what the fuck how does this
relate how is this even like what but if you just continue following it down that
path it’s not gonna make sense for the first five steps but once you make 20
steps you’re gonna be able to look back and be like okay those first five now I
get it now they make sense certain things can only be realized in
retrospect you can only realize and understand shit when you look back on it
you’re not gonna get it while you’re in it so just stay focused stay moving
forward keep taking steps even if they don’t really make that much sense just
follow the shit just do it something is better than nothing okay just remember
me saying do not stop and always put your ass behind your words if you say
you want something okay now what am I gonna do for it and then start doing it
okay so assessment number two for your actions is how much you actually doing
like get really real with yourself and look at how much you’re actually doing
toward your goal so when I was reading books on money and all this I was
reading like two to three a week and a lot of people would be like oh I’m
reading a book a month how fast you think that’s gonna fucking come how fast
do you think you’re gonna manifest that shit like get fucking for real like
again BFFR be fucking for real and look at how much you’re actually doing like
when I started my app positive focus and I was trying to get it out there and
gain like awareness of it I was messaging therapists it was like an idea
that I had like Google all the therapists in the United States and
reach out to all the counselors and therapists I could find over email and
let them know about my app because I figured it would help me get awareness
of it and they could recommend it to clients I was okay it’s probably gonna
be like a slow thing but like word-of-mouth it’ll get out so like I
was like my main thing is just awareness of the app I need people to know it
exists so I would take an hour every day when I woke up and I would message 50
therapists and counselors like I would just go on type up an email and copy and
paste it and send it to 50 different fucking people 50 people looking back
now I’m like huh bitch like 50 people a day and you thought you was gonna get
some kind of return off of that please I literally learned this after like a
week I was like okay 50 a day like for real like look at your actions well how
much are you actually doing because you feel like you’re doing a lot I’ve
convinced myself I was doing so much oh my god just 50 people oh my god it’s
just so much work I bumped that shit up to 300 I started doing 300 a day and
then I started seeing results because I wasn’t seeing shit with 50 and I was
frustrated and I’m like convincing myself I’m doing so much work I’m like
doing so many 50 girl half the people ain’t gonna fucking read the shit and
half the people ain’t even gonna see it so like what one out of 50 is gonna say
something about it and you might get a download from that will be shit I
literally had to look at how much I was doing and get real with myself so I
started doing 300 a day and then I got to what I was doing 500 a day and I was
then I was actually like girl I’m tired I’m doing a lot of fucking work then I
felt like I was working and that’s when I started seeing a little bit of return
on it and some more downloads but that’s my biggest thing with assessment
number two how much are you actually doing and can you be doing more and if
you’re okay with only doing 50 a day you also need to sit down and shut the fuck
up and not be like oh my god why is it not happening faster what can you do to
make it happen faster like I said look for what’s in your control look for what
you can do not oh my god universe why is it not happening faster girl you only
listen to 50 fucking emails a day bump that shit up asking the universe for
more is not gonna do anything you need to do things that are going to bring you
more downloads is what I was telling myself like take it out of the fucking
universe’s hands what can I do that shit saved me and it saves me to this day with
everything that I do okay so assessment number three are you contradicting
yourself with your actions so if you say you want something are your actions in
line with it or are they contradicting it and if they’re contradicting it you
need to clear that shit the fuck up quick so like when I used to say oh my
god I want to save money I’d be over here spending a bunch of money where the
fuck does that make logical sense like clearly you have this goal of saving
money but you’re doing things that are countering that it’s like trying to lose
weight if you’re trying to lose weight and you declare I want to lose weight I
have a desire to lose weight I’m fat and then you go eat bad it’s obvious the
disconnect it’s obvious the reason you’re not gonna fucking get there your
actions are what’s fucking you up it’s not that you’re not meditating enough
it’s not that you’re not revisiting childhood trauma correctly that’s why
you are holding on to weight no bitch is as simple as your fucking actions
you’re contradicting your goddamn self no no wonder there’s no progress and my
biggest thing with this is like you really need to take a look at your
actions and what’s holding you back and what you can be doing instead because a
lot of this is in your control you sabotage yourself so much more than you
realize with a lot of things that you do like when I was trying to save money and
I was spending it literally everything was in my control it wasn’t that the
universe hated me and I was just like doomed and fucked up like oh I just
can’t save money yes you can stop spending it or make more
whoa what a crazy idea but I didn’t see it at the time I was just like oh my god
there’s just so many things that keep coming up that I have to buy do we
really have to buy them I understand unexpected expenses that’s valid but
stop buying shit bitch like put your actions in line with what you say that
you want like stop eating if you want to lose weight no not stop eating entirely
but like stop eating bad shit stop eating so much literally how to do that
with myself too like I did all this at once and it was a fucking fever dream
from hell trying to like revamp my life in every aspect but look at me now you
got money and I’m in shape okay so my next point is like a little tidbit I
just want to throw in about sacrifice because I have a bad relationship with
sacrifice and I do not believe in sacrificing things but at the end of the
day you are gonna have to make sacrifices but it is your decision for
how you feel about a certain sacrifice so sacrifices can feel good or they can
feel like shit and the way you look at them is it will make them feel good or
bad so you can negatively sacrifice I’m gonna be like fuck and be like upset
about it and depressed about it and disappointed I just say disappointed and
less about depressed shut up y’all fucking get it or you can feel really
good about a sacrifice and be like I’m glad I did this so one thing that I do
is look at sacrifices like a trade-off so when I wanted to get my life on track
and I really wanted to pursue making money and like being successful I had to
stop doing a lot of the partying I was doing and hanging out with a lot of the
people that I was around so I had to make a trade-off and I was going into a
life where I was alone and not spending money not having fun not going out not
drinking not doing all this shit I was still smoking cigarettes because I’m not
getting rid of everything but I had to make that trade-off and a lot of people
can’t do it a lot of people can’t make the trade-off and they can make it for a
minute and then they can’t stick to it and that’s a lot of people’s fucking
problem but it’s very very difficult to trade something off for something that’s
in the future so for me to trade off all of my current fun and my current
life with all my friends and like drugs and partying and drinking it’s so much
fun for me to trade all that off for the potential of success was very hard but
if you commit to figuring out a way to do it it will happen whether it takes
one year or ten years if you commit to figuring it the fuck out you will do it
but you will never get there if you don’t make that trade-off so even if it
does take ten years you’re gonna do it or not are you willing to sacrifice for
it or not if you’re not that’s totally okay there’s certain sacrifices I’m not
willing to fucking make and if financial freedom and like securing yourself
financially is not something you’re willing to sacrifice your social life
for then don’t you can go after both it will just slow down the progress and
that’s totally okay you’re allowed to set boundaries around what you will
sacrifice that’s totally healthy that’s totally fine I encourage you to so when
you ask the universe for something set a fucking boundary around it make shit
fall into your boundaries like you’re not willing to give certain things up or
you are willing to give certain things up so that’s one thing to get clear on
is what you’re willing to trade off and what you’re not willing to trade off but
my biggest thing with sacrifices is focusing on what I’m choosing because if
you just focus on what you’re losing all the time and what you no longer get to
have it’s gonna feel negative but if you focus on what you’re gaining and what
you’re choosing by making a certain trade-off or sacrifice it’s gonna feel a
lot better you’re not gonna feel like you’re losing things all the time you’re
gonna feel like you’re gaining things and you also have to keep yourself
accountable with what’s in line with your goals so when I was cutting off my
friends and stopped partying and stopped drinking to start working on my
businesses and getting my fucking shit together I was spending money on alcohol
and going out to eat and drugs and all this shit and then when I switched I was
like okay I’m gonna make the trade-off of not eating out not spending money on
shit and just saving the money so that I can invest it into the businesses that
I want to start and the things that I want to try so when I had the money in
my hand I got to make the trade-off of like do I want to go out to eat with it
or do I want to put it in my savings that’s gonna help me actualize my desire
which one do you want to do which option is in line with your goals if you’re
ever confused about which decision to make which action is gonna get me closer
to my goals and then do that one because putting it in my savings got me closer
to where I want it going and blowing it on a fucking bag or stop you can’t just
speak so freely can I am I allowed to go speak freely or not like YouTube
demonetizes me I make nothing off YouTube but like am I allowed to speak
this freely I don’t fucking know girl arrest me I don’t give a shit I’ll still
make my podcast from jail I’ll just have to do it in like a written form so I’ll
like put an article out every week but anyway my whole point with that was just
focus on what you’re choosing and what you’re gaining over what you’re losing
sacrifices do not have to feel bad they can feel really good if you just focus
on what you’re gaining and what you’re getting but what I say what you’re
choosing you are choosing it it’s not like oh I just have to give up on my
friends oh you’re choosing it you can choose to go hang out with them but you
know where that path leads does it get you to where you want to go no okay so
my next little thing I want to hit on is about when shit goes wrong and when
things get difficult and things start fucking up because that’s something that
would stop me a lot in the past like I was like oh my god it’s a sign I should
stop no what you need to do is recommit every time something fucks up or goes
wrong literally reassess the situation if you’ve tried something and it hasn’t
worked how much are you willing to recommit to it the universe is kind of
gonna test you I don’t really know if it’s a test but it’s like everything
that goes wrong and you recommit it’s like the more energy you’re putting into
this thing being manifest so if nothing can stop you from shoving your energy
into it it’s gonna come if you just hurdle every single thing that fucking
comes up and you keep recommitting to it you keep recommitting your energy to it
and it’s gonna fucking manifest but if you have hurdles happen you don’t jump
them and you just stop putting your energy into it you’re never gonna get it
but I have noticed the more that I recommit to things the more things line
up like it’s like I’ll recommit like five or six times and I’m like enough
bitch and then all of a sudden it’s like a streak of things just lining up weird
like the universe is there to help you and will guide you but the universe is
there to co-create you have universal energy inside of you God energy whatever
you want to fucking say like the ability to create is inside of all of us but the
universe at large is going to co-create with you it’s not gonna sit here and
give you anything if you’re just sitting on your ass you chose into this life to
go about manifesting things and through your actions and having that energy and
expressing that and creating the things that you want so do it like the universe
is not gonna fucking do it for you and what I mean by recommit oh my god girl
when I had the desire to make my podcast a video podcast on YouTube and start
filming this every fucking thing you can imagine would go wrong went wrong
every single thing went wrong when I ordered my camera it was an absolute
shitshow absolute shitshow with everything that happened with it my mic
I ordered two pieces of it I didn’t realize you needed like all this other
shit to go with it so I had to like push off like starting to record on YouTube
for a week and that’s what happened in the beginning like the guy you guys
that have been here like since me like transitioning from like audio to video
if you didn’t know episode 1 through 39 of my podcast is just audio it’s on
Apple podcasts and Spotify but all my video episodes like switching and
starting to record it also bro every single thing that went wrong could go
wrong and it did and I recommitted every single time every single time something
went wrong with the microphone I bought more shit with the camera I sent it back
and returned it and exchange it and got the right one cuz like they sent me a
broken one and then the other one wasn’t gonna get here in time before I
still wanted to start filming so I ordered a different one used it for two
weeks and then returned it while the other one was coming that’s why the
video shit looks so different but I made it fucking work I made it happen I had
to keep recommitting I had to fucking buy lighting there was so many things
like my software for my computer learning how to fucking use it a pain in
the ass but I committed to figuring it out when I recorded my first episode I
had a stain on my shirt and I had to rerecord the whole fucking thing the
second episode I did I recorded it all the audio didn’t save had to record it
again I kept having these hurdles happen and I kept recommitting and look at me
now on fucking YouTube and I’ve been doing it consistently but shit’s gonna
come up shit’s gonna go wrong but the more you recommit the more energy you’re
putting into it and the more confident you’ll feel that you will make shit
happen like you snatch the fucking power out of the universe and you find
it in yourself and you’re no longer like oh my god please help it’s like nah Leo
you got this it’s not like I don’t need help I don’t need you to fucking assist
me I’ll do it I don’t care what comes up I’m gonna make it happen that is when
you feel happy and fulfilled and that life is worth living is when you feel
like you fucking control it so that’s the way to get there also with moving to
Houston girl when I tell you everything went wrong about the podcast switching
it every fucking thing went wrong when I moved to Houston but I was committed to
moving here and living here and making it happen I did a whole podcast episode
I did too about all the headache and all the bullshit I was going through they’re
both on the audio version of my podcast but I vented about like everything going
wrong and I kept having to recommit there was no option to opt out I did not
give myself the option of like going back home or not moving here motherfucker
once I decided I wanted it them actions were in line with it and I kept
hurtling everything that came up and I kept recommitting and it’s the best
decision I ever fucking made so if you’re facing something where you’re
like everything’s just going wrong at the beginning maybe it’s a sign maybe
the fuck it’s not maybe you’re not being punished you’re being prepared for what
the fuck you need to go through to be strong enough to handle when you get
this desire because a lot of the things that went wrong when I moved to Houston
prepared me for everything I’ve had to handle and who I’ve had to grow into to
handle all the situations that I’m in now it was all a key part of it you’re
not being punished you’re being prepared but it’s gonna feel like you’re being
punished while you’re going through it like I kept looking up at the universe
like you fucking rat bitch what the fuck is the point I literally am so like I
get it I get why everything has had to happen this way I get that it’s built me
into who I am but when I die when I get to the gates of heaven I’m not saying a
word God put your fucking hands up I’m walking in that bitch and I’m swinging
on site I’m just going to town you motherfucker wanted to sit up there my
whole life and throw shit at me my whole life and just think it was funny I think
there was no consequence for my actions I know it was here to help me but you
punk bitch you’re gonna get my fucking lick back I don’t care if you beat my
ass I’m going to hell anyway cuz I’m gay but I’m gonna throw hands with you bitch
I’m not saying shit when I walk into the gates of heaven I’m just swinging my
soul is so pissed off oh my god like I get it I understand everything that’s
happened I get how it was for me but fuck you for making me go through that
shit you could have found a different way like you just had to make so many
minor inconveniences happened for me like what the fuck every single thing
that I’ve ever tried I’ve always felt is so prevented because the amount of
ironic shit that goes wrong I’ve handled it all and I’ve hurtled it all
but I’m gonna get my fucking lick back bitch watch me live to like 120 years
old cuz God don’t want me to die he’s like I don’t want that one coming up
here but my point behind that little tangent is shit’s gonna feel like you’re
being punished and like it’s going wrong keep hurtling keep recommitting trust me
from someone who’s been there keep recommitting just do it it’s gonna
happen okay so now I want to talk about a couple of little things that you
require action because a lot of people like to get into the delusional thinking
of like oh you can just manifest shit so I’m gonna pop that bubble real quick so
if you want to build muscle you can’t just sit in your bed and just imagine it
and meditate and rub a crystal on your fucking clit and fucking like sit there
and think it into existence you have to go pick up a weight you have to go eat
protein and eat shit that’s gonna rebuild your body you have to go break
down the muscles and then fuel your body to rebuild them bigger that’s how
it goes you cannot get big muscle wise without taking action I don’t care how
long you lay in your fucking bed and visualize it good luck bitch that hold
the secret everybody loves mm-hmm bunch of horse shit there’s so much
miscommunication and things that are not clarified girl the same thing with
growing on social media like when I had the desire to grow on social media you
have to post fucker you have to do shit you can’t just sit here and oh my god I
posted one video hope it blows up for real a lot of people think like that and
I’d like I need to wake you up sure a lot of people can make one video and
blow up like the wizard Liz like that bucking bitch is like a weird case or
she just made one video and it popped off but would she have gotten as big as
she is if she only ever made that one video no can you only bank on that one
video doing well no what can you bank on you can bank on the numbers game of
how many videos you will post so if you only give one video for the universe to
have go viral if you want to play it like that give the universe a thousand
videos to make go viral and see what the fuck happens raise your likelihood raise
your fucking likelihood and put your actions behind it and create it like
literally the ones bound to pop off if you do a thousand if you make one
probability is like this probability is like so itty-bitty like an ant but now
I’m gonna kind of get into things like the podcast that I’m gonna be on I had a
desire that I wanted to go on some big podcasts and like go be a guest cuz I
just I’ve always wanted to do that like go on podcasts and just like share some
shit that I know or like help you guys get to know me like getting interviewed
is different from me being here so you’ll see me in a whole different light
when I go on Drew’s podcast and I’m also going on spin spots I’m actually leaving
tomorrow to go to LA but you’ll be seeing this on Sunday so happy Sunday
but I had a desire to get on bigger podcasts now I can sit here and just
grow my social media and keep posting and just wait for someone to stumble
across my page and maybe ask me to be on their podcast or I can take it the more
active and empowered approach and reach out to people what’s the higher
likelihood bitch what’s actually gonna help me actualize that and manifest that
desire and have those opportunities I’m gonna take the active approach I started
messaging people and it fucking worked like I messaged drew she was like the
first one I messaged and it fucking worked and now I’m gonna be on the
podcast but I had to take the active approach of reaching out you can’t just
sit back and be like universe send me podcasts to be on girly pop get your
fucking fingers moving type you some shit reach out make your own podcast
make a name for yourself that someone would want to have you on their podcast
as a guest and then it will increase the likelihood you see what I’m saying
take the empowered approach with everything stop doing the powerless
shit my last little example I want to give you is like when I created my app I
talk about this a lot but it’s such a good learning experience for everyone
even myself but when I talk about taking actions even though you don’t know what
to do I had an idea to make this app okay so I started researching it to see
if something else existed nothing on like the quality level that I wanted
existed like the quality of the messages coming through those other notification
apps that will send you positive notifications but they’re like little
horse shit like they’re like fucking stupid I wanted things that would
actually make you think and would shift your focus so I was like okay there was
a hole in the market I’ll do it how do you create an app I don’t fucking know I
literally didn’t know so first thing I did was go to a trademark attorney and
have the name trademarked and then I asked him how do I have an app created
and then he guided me to where to start looking for an app developer and then I
had the app developed but there was so many things that went wrong with me
trying to start this fucking app but I do want to say there are gonna be
messages and signs that you are being guided and I don’t know if you believe
in numerology or not but repeating numbers are gonna pop up when you’re
going down the right path and you’re doing something you’re gonna start
seeing synchronicities and things are gonna pop up and it’s like the
universe’s way of communicating with you that you’re supported so a lot of
things were going wrong with me just meeting with this fucking attorney to
even just get to know where I’m supposed to go next but before I went to go see
an attorney I convinced myself I can just be an app developer and for 30 days
I was like trying to learn how to code and create an app and it just was too
much and I couldn’t figure it the fuck out I could have had I kept doing it but
I was just not willing to keep putting in that work I’ll just fucking pay for
someone for it like I was like dealing cars at the time I had some money so I
literally was like okay I want this app out quick I don’t have another fucking
year to sit here and fucking teach myself how to code so I’ll just go pay
someone to do it and then when I met up with the attorney so many things were
going wrong and I was like am I making the right decision is this attorney
gonna be able to help me am I gonna get the name positive focus because I had to
request it like I it was very hard to get that trademarked but when I went to
the attorney I was a little doubtful and I was a little like all right
there’s been too many hurdles already like is this shit even like like goddamn
is it worth it like how many hoops do I have to jump through like I’m not a
fucking circus animal I was one for this app jump through all kind of hoops but
one of the synchronicities that I had happen was the lawyer brought up like
some kind of mock-up paperwork and there was like a screenshot of a certain app
and it was like one of the apps that I had look up to like create the concept
off of and then put my own quotes and like change the design and all that sure
but like the concept I had the attorney I didn’t tell him anything about this he
was like oh I just printed this out in case you wanted it and to like help you
because I really liked the idea behind your app because I had like been on the
phone with them before I went to see him to tell him what the meeting was about
and then when I saw him it was like to draft everything up and like get the
trademark submitted he printed out ideas for me it was the exact same app
that I was like inspired by and on the top of the screenshot on his phone he
screenshotted the like App Store and the time on his phone was 4 4 4 and it was
printed said I still have the paper I don’t know where it’s at but I still
have that paper of the mock-up he printed and he just printed that for me
to have it was like here I want to like help you however I can but that was the
universe’s way of talking to me in that moment because I was second-guessing
shit and I didn’t know if it was worth it but like how do you fucking explain
that you know like you got to watch out for those synchronicities look for
repeating numbers 4 4 4 7 7 7 anything that there is I actually have 7 7 7
tattooed on my foot right here me and my sister have it matching but that little
synchronicity brought me so much comfort in that moment because I was like like
all my questioning went away and I fully was like I’m doing this like I
felt supported to recommit so I fucking did there was a whole shit show of new
obstacles that came up after that but there was also synchronicities that like
helped me along and even when there was periods where there was no
synchronicities I still was just driving through it and then more would pop up
but my point with that is to say you are being guided whether you want to believe
in a higher power or the universe or anything you’re being guided and you
will be tested but the more you recommit I swear to God it just lines up
like the more you can recommit no matter how bad it gets the more you recommit
unless it’s a relationship give that shit the fuck up but the more you
commit to a goal I swear to God it’s gonna get bad it’s gonna get dark but
just keep moving keep recommitting if you really really want it if something
can stop you from recommitting you don’t want it bad enough try something else
but if you know you fucking want this thing and you’re committed to it nothing
will be able to stop you and that level of forward-moving creative energy coming
out of any being that shit’s gonna manifest and that is where I’m gonna
leave this podcast episode off I hope this was helpful I’m sorry if you got
offended but you needed to hear all this you can’t fight me and say that it
wasn’t good information love you it was all coming from the heart it was all
things I wish someone would have told me I’m just like the person that will say
it everybody else wants a sugarcoat shit because they’re trying to sell you
courses about how to manifest but if you enjoyed this video leave it a
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to say and if it helped you on that note I’m gonna go get ready for my LA trip if
you want to keep up with me while I’m on a trip I’m gonna be posting a lot on
Instagram and tick-tock so links in the description for that keep up with me
let’s go on the trip together but everybody be safe take care of yourself
put your ass behind your words throw some actions in there and line some shit
up for yourself you absolutely got this I love you guys to death I promise I
swear on my whole heart but I will talk to you guys next Sunday